phone call
Sep. 10th, 2008 07:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thereyougotheni suppose this isn't obvious to anyone but me, but what is scaring me is not the possibility that I might have got cancer in, as they call it, the "contra-lateral" breast. it's that if I have, it will totally screw our schedule for moving and Bill's new job. it doens't mean he will lose the job, but we will end up having to put if off by a couple of months if I need surgery. or maybe not, now that they've used up my spare tummy, maybe there'd be nothing to use?
anywya, if I need more surgery, well, ok, I'd have to have it, there are no decisions ot be made there, we'd just get on with it, but all our plans change, and well, we'd have to tell everyone, for one thing. and we're all psyched up to go in a couple of monhts, and what if we don't? it will feel awful.
so anyway, i called one of the breast care nurses, she is trying ot get me an early appointment. my consulant is going off on holiday, so I will have to see another. last time I was there, my consultant was off on holiday and I had to see this other guy too. whihc means he's the one who was left to give me that bad news about the invasive cancer and not have any answers to give me. so i'd honestly prefer not to see him, as it may bring back all those feelings of shock and fear again. but if it's him, or wait until October 7th, I'll take him.
we are hoping that I can get a mammogram first and have the results available at the clinic appt. usuaklly it's done the other way roud, which is crazy, if you ask me. anyway. that's where we are. i called.
can't be arsed fixing typos today...
anywya, if I need more surgery, well, ok, I'd have to have it, there are no decisions ot be made there, we'd just get on with it, but all our plans change, and well, we'd have to tell everyone, for one thing. and we're all psyched up to go in a couple of monhts, and what if we don't? it will feel awful.
so anyway, i called one of the breast care nurses, she is trying ot get me an early appointment. my consulant is going off on holiday, so I will have to see another. last time I was there, my consultant was off on holiday and I had to see this other guy too. whihc means he's the one who was left to give me that bad news about the invasive cancer and not have any answers to give me. so i'd honestly prefer not to see him, as it may bring back all those feelings of shock and fear again. but if it's him, or wait until October 7th, I'll take him.
we are hoping that I can get a mammogram first and have the results available at the clinic appt. usuaklly it's done the other way roud, which is crazy, if you ask me. anyway. that's where we are. i called.
can't be arsed fixing typos today...
