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tags and chemo 4 report...
Jan. 27th, 2008 10:36 pmi just tagged a bunch of my entries. one day all this evil cancer stuff might no longer be at the forefront of my mind, but i might want to remind myself. or maybe, it might be a help (i hope, as opposed to a hindrance) to someone else who might one day go through it.
hence the tags. and i've put in my chemo blood counts, just in case i can ever find a scale that actually tells me whether or not my white cell count is scarily low. but it's probably not, because the chemo nurse is always so pleased and surprised at how well i am.
but i'm still allowed my full quota of sympathy, we've agreed that. just because the chemo isn't as bad as it could be or as bad as i expected it to be, it's still awful and horrible and something that i never thought i would have to go through. so i'm still allowed sympathy. and the odd wallow in some self-pity?
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chemo 4. day 5
half way through, and done with the evil heavy chemo, and onto chemo light as Cancer Vixen puts it. i was back up on quite a high on wednesday, i guess it was just knowing that i was halfway through, and done with the epirubicin. and hey, i still have some hair left. but i'm fully expecting a sucker punch soon, and it will all fall out, going nyah nyah, fooled you. well, never mind, it will make the pretend hair fit better and it will all be the same length when it grows back. so nyah nyah right back.
anyway, it was our shortest visit so far, 1 hour 45 minutes. only one needle, and i believe i only gasped, no yelps this time. really, nothing to write home about. we left, i dropped Bill off at work, contemplated going and getting the shopping in, but decided not to bother, came home and hung out with my knitting until N came home. TT had gone home with a friend and then to Beavers.
i think i might even have cooked the tea, but i forget what it was. pasta maybe? i had a headache by that point, and again it stayed with me until bedtime and was gone in the morning.
headache came back a bit on thursday afternoon, but that's been it. heartburn nicely controlled by the magic bullets, i get hiccups, but i just have to live with them and they don't last.
my skin is dry and my face is red, blotchy and sometimes itchy, but no worse than the previous treatments.
i can call it chemo now too, i've noticed, i've stopped referring to my "treatments".
anything else? it was reassuring to be told that absent-mindedness, lack of concentration and all the rest are known side effects. it's really wearing to not be able to think, or remember what the hell i was doing 21 seconds ago, but it's all normal, ok?
thirsty. my sense of taste is recovering. had a coffee today that almost tasted like coffee. shared a beer with Bill, and it was quite nice. Chili for dinner, i could taste that too.
now, some more water and then bed.
and i don't think i have made many mistakes in my knitting today. but i did have to go into a quiet room to work my way through row 22 of the second repeat of woolly wormhead's dryad which i just couldn't find my place in for some reason. but it's fine now, and i have 2 repeats completed, even if it is completely in the wrong yarn, i'm enjoying knitting it. especially after a few days in which i have done nothing but knit knit knit knit knit knit round either N's sock or my pullover!
oh and - Boots - these are what are available currently in or around my size from Duo... Can't decide. But I should obviously go with one of the ones from the sale, as opposed to the full price. I suppose. Lyon, Bologna, Toulouse, or Lisbon
hence the tags. and i've put in my chemo blood counts, just in case i can ever find a scale that actually tells me whether or not my white cell count is scarily low. but it's probably not, because the chemo nurse is always so pleased and surprised at how well i am.
but i'm still allowed my full quota of sympathy, we've agreed that. just because the chemo isn't as bad as it could be or as bad as i expected it to be, it's still awful and horrible and something that i never thought i would have to go through. so i'm still allowed sympathy. and the odd wallow in some self-pity?
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chemo 4. day 5
half way through, and done with the evil heavy chemo, and onto chemo light as Cancer Vixen puts it. i was back up on quite a high on wednesday, i guess it was just knowing that i was halfway through, and done with the epirubicin. and hey, i still have some hair left. but i'm fully expecting a sucker punch soon, and it will all fall out, going nyah nyah, fooled you. well, never mind, it will make the pretend hair fit better and it will all be the same length when it grows back. so nyah nyah right back.
anyway, it was our shortest visit so far, 1 hour 45 minutes. only one needle, and i believe i only gasped, no yelps this time. really, nothing to write home about. we left, i dropped Bill off at work, contemplated going and getting the shopping in, but decided not to bother, came home and hung out with my knitting until N came home. TT had gone home with a friend and then to Beavers.
i think i might even have cooked the tea, but i forget what it was. pasta maybe? i had a headache by that point, and again it stayed with me until bedtime and was gone in the morning.
headache came back a bit on thursday afternoon, but that's been it. heartburn nicely controlled by the magic bullets, i get hiccups, but i just have to live with them and they don't last.
my skin is dry and my face is red, blotchy and sometimes itchy, but no worse than the previous treatments.
i can call it chemo now too, i've noticed, i've stopped referring to my "treatments".
anything else? it was reassuring to be told that absent-mindedness, lack of concentration and all the rest are known side effects. it's really wearing to not be able to think, or remember what the hell i was doing 21 seconds ago, but it's all normal, ok?
thirsty. my sense of taste is recovering. had a coffee today that almost tasted like coffee. shared a beer with Bill, and it was quite nice. Chili for dinner, i could taste that too.
now, some more water and then bed.
and i don't think i have made many mistakes in my knitting today. but i did have to go into a quiet room to work my way through row 22 of the second repeat of woolly wormhead's dryad which i just couldn't find my place in for some reason. but it's fine now, and i have 2 repeats completed, even if it is completely in the wrong yarn, i'm enjoying knitting it. especially after a few days in which i have done nothing but knit knit knit knit knit knit round either N's sock or my pullover!
oh and - Boots - these are what are available currently in or around my size from Duo... Can't decide. But I should obviously go with one of the ones from the sale, as opposed to the full price. I suppose. Lyon, Bologna, Toulouse, or Lisbon
