i'm not good at this

i have to phone up and get an appointment at the breast clinic.  and i just can't do it.  if we weren't leaving, i could just wait until they send me an appt, but i can't wait that long.

i really really can't bring myself to make the phone call.  but i have to.  i'm just scared that i will have developed cancer in the other breast. 

i'm tired, stressed and scared.  not a good place to be.